I had hoped to get a little further in my reading yesterday, but only started one more day. I need to remember that it's not quantity, but quality that matters. What happens is I start reading and something hits me between the eyes and I stop to journal. And (as you've no doubt noticed from my first posting) when I write I tend to write A LOT!! LOL! But, it's all good - I'm excited to hear God speaking to me and that keeps me going.
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Ok, so - on to what I'm hearing the Lord say...
I'm just at the verses that talk about Christ's temptation. He resists, not on His own, but because He has God's Word deep in His heart. He learned the stories as a young boy, He believed them and understood their meanings. And now, when He is tempted, when the battle rages, He falls upon those Words. Simply by speaking them, Satan is silenced. He cannot fight against such Truth.
I'm not very good at memorizing, but I remember one time when I was troubled - fighting temptation, completely overwhelmed with the situation. I sat at my desk, paralized with fear. I remember putting my head in my hands thinking "I can't do this. Lord, help me". And immediately I heard "I have not given you a spirit of fear". His Words had an instantaneous effect. The fear was gone and I was at peace. I was able to do what had to be done and it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be.
God's Word is so powerful! Why then do I not learn it? Not just memorize it, but LEARN it, burn it deep within my soul that I might silence Satan when he pursues me? He could be stopped dead in his tracks. I have the most powerful weapon in the universe at my fingertips and I don't use it. Why? Selfish desire. The enemy has convinced me that my desires are better for me than God's. Even now, typing those words, knowing it's not true, there's a part of me that's screaming, "NO!!! DON'T LET GO!!! YOU DESERVE THOSE DESIRES!!! YOU NEED THOSE DESIRES!!! YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO LIVE WITHOUT THOSE DESIRES!!!". But even louder than the screaming is the Holy Spirit, gently whispering, "I know your desires and I will give you what you need. Don't be afraid. Don't worry. I love you, I care for you. You were created for much greater things than what your tiny brain can come up with. Have faith. LIVE LARGE!"
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Sherry, you go. Keep on asking questions and let it all fall on paper from your heart. That's good stuff. This is all scary to me. I can blurt out a sentence or two here and there. This is encouraging. Don't feel you have to do it a certain way. Where you are at is real and authentic!
ReplyDeleteSherry and whoever else reads this. Sherry, I am so encouraged with your heart and sticktoitness. Bless you.
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