Nothing is the same...

I wanted to respond to Sussy's question...I guess instead of reading I decided I'd watch The Passion again. Part of it was still so vivid in my mind from watching it last year and yet part of me was drawn to watching it all again so I never forget...parts I couldn't watch, parts encouraged me. Remember at times when He was teaching He'd talk about loving our enemies, with His dicisples He would tell them that if they/we loved Him that those who hated Him will also hate us. While carrying the cross in a passage way He fell and His mother ran to Him (remembering when He was small), He said to her something like "I make all things new". In everything Jesus went through NONE of it was deserved...I really can't understand God loving any of us enough to put His Son through all He suffered. It makes no sense...neither does forgiving our enemies, or those who do evil and need to be brought to justice...but then NOTHING I watched in The Passion makes any sense to me either...all things will be new, different. What does He mean? Different? Different from how and what I think should be done? None of us, the righteous, the religious, the evil, the sinners, the saved...none of us deserve His forgiveness. After watching and seeing all the blood that was shed through out His suffering, I am humbled just thinking that my sins (the sins of the world) are washed away in His shed blood. For some reason, I'm finding it easier to admit that NOTHING in my walk with Christ, nothing going on in this world makes sense. It is almost certain that if I think something should be done a certain way...like giving justice out to those who deserve it, rejoiceing when the evil get punished..I can almost bank on it...Everything will be different, ie. NOT my way but His. He will judge and He will forgive whom He choses...I don't get His thinking, or understand His heart...It just seems so often to be just the opposite of my heart. Someday, all things will be new...and exactly as He desires them to be. "All thing will be new" and they will make sense to us then...just not yet.